I had my fun last week in New York and now it’s time to get back to the job search. I must say being broke and looking for a job is a little frustrating. I have sent out one hundred and fifty resumes. Not. One. Response. Is not getting a response the same as rejection? I’m going to have to say that in this case it is. Me and Rejection don’t get along too well. I tend to get a little sensitive when rejected, which is probably why I can’t stand the dating scene. I have what psychologists call uhhh….fear of rejection. Oh, but no worries, the Rejection Hotline is at my beckon call. I love giving my hang-ups a name. It makes them seem all neat and organized, as if you can make your hang-ups neat and organized. The problem is that it doesn’t make it feel any 
better, so giving it a name doesn’t really help at all.
Why is it that when I am in a precarious situation a bunch of stupid shit happens to make things seem worse? I’ve come to the conclusion that there is a loophole in the laws of karma. I have heard that when someone does something bad the law of karma will balance things out and something bad will happen to that person. There seems to be a glaring missing part of this law that no one seems to mention. If karma is all about balance than why not if someone does something bad, then something good will happen to them. Or if someone does something good, then they will be karmatically repaid by breaking their foot on their way to the marathon they were going to run today. And why is it when a bunch of crap occurred yesterday, people say, “Oh, yours will come, and “The good always makes up for bad?”
They never talk about the bad making up for the good. It’s easier to think we deserve good things all the time, but I don’t think it’s at all realistic. If it were true that good things happened to people who did good things and bad things happened to people who did bad things there would be all kinds of statistics pointing to that. There would be data charts in our science books to support this hypothesis. I have never read any research that supports this theory. I am really skeptical of this Karma thing and I’m not falling for it. I think it’s something we tell ourselves to get us through the day because if we didn’t we might have to say, “My life has been good for a long time. Karma is going to catch up with me soon and put an end to this happiness.” And then what? We would never be happy knowing incomprehensible pain is just around that next corner.
I just wanted to express my thoughts on this. I don’t mean to get all Zen and shit.
Hi Rose, Just wanted to give you a small glimmer of hope (maybe?): not receiving a response from submitting a resume is NOT the same as a rejection, at least not immediately. It can take places of employment anywhere from a few weeks to a few months to get back to you. You should not count yourself out of the running until they actually tell you that you’re out.
Hi, Rose:
Just came across your blog. I am in exactly the same situation. I’ve lost count as to how many resumes I’ve sent out, but I can tell you how many actual responses I’ve received — 2. I almost wish the companies would reject me, just to put me out of my misery.